For quite some time I felt like my life was at a standstill. I felt like I was trapped in a fast moving environment but my feet were being held by the dangerous grip of Earth. I felt like I was watching time and the people I once knew pass me by. I felt alone. Bored with myself. Uneasy. Unsure. I felt like even though my body was physically here, mentally I was trapped within myself. 

The worst part. I knew all of this. Felt all of this. Yet, felt like I could do nothing to seize it. 

I felt like my life was at a halt.

I'm proud to say that feeling has passed.

I'm doing everything. 

Or trying to at least.

I've got a job (that's totally temporary), I'm about to go on vacation (which I can't wait for), and my life is moving.

Oddly enough, I think I owe that to church ... and God of course.

Anyone who knows me, knows that I am sooooo not a fan of church. I'm much more spiritual.

It's crazy, one day I was feeling so out of it.My mother said something like "please come to church with me today". It was mother's day so I thought why not. At least it's making her happy. But the sermon, reallllllyyy got to me. Something about freeing yourself. Freeing your mind. And once you do that, you'll be happy.

So I did that. Day by day, I just live. Laugh. Enjoy life.I try really hard to not think about the things that anger me. I try man. I try. Sometimes I just lay in bed and literally talk to God, and cry -but it feels so good.

I'm on the road to find my tranquility. I know there'll be much more trails and tribulations but I'm ready. Way more now than ever.